Thnxx ALMIGHTY GOD..! ThNXX SO MUCH 4 BEING THERE..!


If I weren't tru..wud've manipulated mine earlier write-upz.. But I've the courage to face the reality & stand by whtever I DO..


So I accept hereby..Was wrng again in choosing & embarkng the name of a persn who doesn't deserve tht much imp.. I regret writing all tht & givng my thotzz to a prsn..

Mine fault again..Kindly pardon me..!

I apologise for all the genuineness, honesty, sincerity, dedicated attitude of mine..for being tru..for being committed..for all those sleepless nightzz..for all those long sessionzz..for all those unwanted lectures..for all those unasked free suggesstionzz..for trusting u blindly..and offerng a free hand to hit me bak..


Wht do I do with the momentzz spent solely for u..? Hw to mk upto my lost faith..? Wht do I do with the wordzz engraved on my heart..?? And..those wordzz effortlessly written in my diary(u callng me the most integral part of ur life..ur replica..ur tru-self..& 2 rshpzz beyond comprehension..).....



STRANGE...BUT TRU...!!


Evry1 changezz...No worries..!! NO REGRETZZ..!! NO GRUDGES..!! (I truly wish this change bringzz in lotzzz of happinezz & peace ur way..!)


If my wordzz...deedzz...actionzz have ever hurt u.. with folded hands, I ask for sincere apologies.. & xpress my gratitude for all tht u did..!


"Being a gud persn is like..being a Goal-Keeper..No matter, hw many goals I save..ppl will rmbr only the ones tht I MISSED..

Thtzz TRUTH OF LIFE..Thtzz the IRONY..!"





U REMAIN HAPPY FOREVER & EVER..!!



MAY GOD BLESS...!


P.S.: Wud love..if smday u happen to read this..! Mine feelngzz still remain the veri same & wn't change in this turmoil either..

Sm1 truly said.."If u love smthing..set it free..If it cmzz bak..It waz urzzz, otherwise..It nvr waz..!"


I have let go every1...with the xpectation----thy wud nvr turn their bak..(PUN INTENDED..!).. M FREE, HAPPY, RELAXED, CALM & COOL nw..!


Thnxx PRABHU JI..! Thnxx so much..! Thnxx SHRI DADA SAHEB..!

Mine LUCK is too TUF to b cracked.. :-)

"Kuch puraane nagme..
Kuch sookhe phool..
Kuch bhooli yaadein..
Kuch pyaare shool..
Waqt ki purwaai le aayi..
Aangan ki mehakti khusbhoo..
Tanhaai ke kuch aalaam..
Rishtoin ki chaadar..
Mas-rufiyat ki deewaar..
Qaid hain mere zehen mein..
Un khatoin ke lihaaf..
Woh baarish ki boondein..
Woh jazbaatoin kaa kaafilaa..
Woh chaand ki khaamoshi..


Sab hain roshan..
Koi gilaa nahi baaki ab..
Hisaab pichlaa chukaa aayaa hoon..!"

At least..m relieved of the debtzz..have paid alimony..! No more relationzz draggng me off..! No more indulgence into ne addiction..! Rshpzz r meant to mk 1 weak & drain away the best qualities of an individual..!

No matter wht.."Hum dariyaa hain...Hume apnaa hunar maaloom hai..Jis taraf bhi chal padhenge raastaa ho jaayegaa..!"...




Thnxx a ton to all those ppl...who came in my life & helped me grow.. b a better persn...(May b..thy'z motive was different..) I promise..everytime..M shattered..I wud bounce bak with double force..!


To squeeze life out of me..nt possible..!

M all shattered..Missing u DARLING..! Wishng u're here by my side..

Whn vil it change..? Time iz playng a prank on me & forcing me to do all tht..I nvr had..

"Raah mein milte hain kuch log..
Hum-kadam hote hain..
Pal jeete hain..
Yaadoin ke nishaan..
Khanzar se naasoor de jaate hain..

E-Khudaa..
Kabhi naa hum-wafaa banaa..
Kabhi naa hum-navaa banaa..


Yeh khwaaboin ke manzar cheerte hain..
Rooh chheel jaate hain..
Wafaaoin ke saudaagar..
Vehsat ke baashinde..


Uroozh teraa..Javaal meraa..
Aah..! Meri Kismat..Meri hasrat..

Sach kehte the Faasil..
Pashemaan hotaa hai..
Rushool Khudaa bhi...
Phir meri bisaat hi kyaa hai..??"

Tru..!! Wht m I..?

"Waqt kaa pulindaa meri rooh bakshtaa hi nahi..
Ke jism bhi sulagtaa rahaa raat bhar kohre mein..!"


Lotzz of ppl arnd..still no1..This is wht v call...a PERFECT SITUATION for a PERFECT EVENING..!


Wordzz r flowng out after agezz..endlessly.. The most desirable effort...here I m..in full swing..Gng on with sm useless interpretationzz of rshpzz.. Ppl say..1 shudn't magnify the rshpzz..as usual, I have a different opinion..M no herd..!

A nazm came in lately for the LOVELY LADY..who has given me all the liberties..(BLANKET PERMISSION..she used this word..)...

But..I call it BLIND GAME..

This time..hv reached a dramatic conclusion.."Cm wht may..m nt gonna leave..u may kick me..But, m here to STAY..!"


Dedicated to the LOVELY LADY..!

"Woh puraane dard kaa khanzar..
Shehad mein duboo bhejaa thaa..
Khat mein sazaa kar..
Us shab ki gehraai mein..

Chilman bhi maddham thi kuch..
Woh khaamoshi kaa saayaa..
Guloin ki barsaat..
Baadaloin ki angrdaayi..
Chaand thodaa harzaai..

Dair-O-Haram par azmaaish..
Ghazaloin kaa sharmaanaa..
Lafzoin ke saahil..

Zehen mein uthi thi ik tees..
Kismat se ranjish..
Khushiyoin kaa libaas..
Kuch rengte rishte..

Wazood kaa aks..
Tanhaaion kaa toofaan..
Thodi dhoondli udaasi..

Un jaawaa rangoin ki bisaat..
Madhoshi kaa aalam..
Yeh udhaar ki saansein..
Sookhi aankhoin se behte ashqk..

Pighalti ret kaa aangan..
Sukoon ki kash-m-kash..
Judaai ki dehshat..


Haqkeekat kaa tamaashaa..
Raqkeeboin se dost..
Dil ke chhaale..
Nashtar si rooh..
Musaafir saa jism..





Ehsaas ki oss..
Gar gir jaaye..
Us pal ki muskuraahat..
Dam le jaaye..
Suroor nazaroin mein..
Is kadar chhaa jaaye..
Dhuaan bikhar jaaye..
Fizaayein dhul jaayein..
Takqdeer badal jaaye..
Mausam-E-Bahar mein..
Chaandni saz jaaye..

Tum jo aao..
Khumaari ki ibaadat karte-karte..
Khaak ho jaayein..!"



Aap khayaaloin se jaate hi nahi..!

No matter wht..Certain ppl wud mean the same...veri same to me..


Their importance wn't change ever..I will love them till eternity..with ZERO XPECTATIONZZ..! Thy may chose to chose me..or stay away..! Thy may chose to hurt me..again.. No grudgezz..!

MAY B..this is the only way of living my life fully..


I invite the comment of all the ppl who fall in this category..lemme c..wht I mean to them..!


Wud wait..!

Rshpzz...The most integral & basic necessity of human..


For me...Life haz alwayzz been a game..a challenge...if nt alwayzz, I have WON measurably fair..Coz..."Hum dariyaa hain..hume apnaa hunar maaloom hai...Jis taraf bhi chal padenge..Raastaa ho jaayegaa..!"

U have to pay handsmly for being---loyal, committed, dedicated, honest, genuine, helpful, passionate..U ought to hurt urself...Thtzz the rule of the game...

Dyng unknwingly a 1k deathzz, u r the 1 most looked out..!


Wht to xpect...whn none can undrstnd ur wordzz, SILENCE is reasnably far.. Comfortng own self aftr a war with unreasnable world..It feelzz like giving up URSELF..

But, smthng has alwayzz stopped me..May b..THTZZ MY LORD..Sm POWER..so STRONG..Alwayzz been by my side--no matter wht I m..no matter wht I DID..! Nt juzz consolng, playng a better role of takng full charge of my mind..

Thnxx...Thnxx ALMIGHTY GOD..! Thnxx PRABHU JI.. THNXX SHRI DADA SAHEB..!


Eventually..I m fully-equipped with strength to stand for OWN-SELF..& my so-called close buddies.. They took away my heart, moulded, played with it..Thy alwayzz cherish my BEING..So, alwayzz 4given for their deedzz..."ANYTHING FOR THEM..!"...Evn if, I have to lay dwn myself..for their happinezz..I wud b the happiest & luckiest persn..!


Who gives a damn...?? None..Thtzz my DESTINY & can't change it..Ironically, I have changed my DESTINY..frm being the most unaccessible to the most accessible---for my frnzz...

Frnzz---who dared to INVENT this..? Wudn't have thot of the aftermathzz...Hw it feelz whn the persn u love the most..doesn't care..? Whn ur eyes r lashed with tearzz...thy conceive it as a dust particle..FANTASTIC..!

Thtzz the BEAUTY OF A RSHP...! Whn u r willing to stake ur most precious assets, ur valuable time..for ur buddy..! Whn u dn't give a damn...whn was the last nite u'd a sound sleep, whn was the last time..u smiled coz u took all the painzz as if it was ur own..! Whn u fight with ur Mom for callng ur BUDDY selfish..Whn u can give up n no. of vacationzz to comfort ur BUDDY..Whn u sat all nite long planning the wayzz to cheer up ur BUDDY(at the end of a rshp)...


Lifezz been a mixed blessing..Juzz 1 grudge---"Y m I alwayzz convicted..for no fault of mine..? Y do ppl make their meal & walk away..takng a part of me..? Y do they pretend to b the best BUDDIES..whn their sole aim is to mk a FOOL of me..? Y do I give myself to them..?? Y can't I b like them..use wordzz wrapped with all sweetness..? Y my heart bleedzz to c BUDDIES in trouble..? Y m I a DUMBO..? Y m I such a STUPID..? Y do I xpect frm them..whn I knw...m the SOFT-TARGET..?"


None can answer these Qzz..


Hw long do I take this..? Whn wud this exile end..? Whn wud I b the 1..free to live for mY OWN-SELF..? Whn m I gonna stop cheatng myself...stop hurtng myself..??

Is thr any end of this journey..? Is thr ne ray of hope..? Is thr any LIFE on the othr side of tunnel..?


I need no1 by my side..Can comfort self on gloomy dayzz, can adjust my SAIL..can xplore these mountainzz..can turn waves in my favour..can make ALMIGHTY GOD SMILE...! Can do ne damn thng..!


These rshpzz r meant to mk u fragile..weak..They take away ur INDIVIDUALITY, leave u with an unendng SEARCH...a journey tht has no destination..!!


Still..a wish frm the core of my heart..MAY GOD BLESS every1..Bestow them with all happinezz, success, fortune, health, peace & power..!!